Posts tagged panic disorder

Ugh my anxiety or panic disorder or separation anxiety or agoraphobia or just general anxiety disorder or whatever you want to call it or maybe just ALL of them just MAJORLY sucks. I just avoid everything all the time i rarely do things with people, i really like being out with my friends but OH GOD more than 2 minutes away from my house…into a really slightly unpredictable situation..NO WAY. I want to be able to do things on my own but i can’t even be in the house by myself i can’t be ANYWHERE by myself and i’m so clingy and awkward with my dad and i’m ANNOYED that i get separation anxiety that way…alright it has been DRILLED into my head since i was 6…my brain didn’t bother to tell me about it until i was 18 and it seems STUPID which makes me feel great and helpful obviously, and i’m just dragging him down with me and i hate it i hate it i hate it and i just feel guilty ALL the time and just ARRRGHH.

/rant

Apologies….

almost 2 years of this piss-take half existance

infinitedaffodil:

Hey guys :) Listen, i know i’m just one person, and i’m not going to change the world over night, but this is something that is important to me..so..if you want to…i could use your help!

My experience with my on going anxiety, for about a year and a half now, has sent my on my own journey. I’ve learnt so much more about mental illness, i’ve met lots of new people through feeling this way, people sharing experiences and helping eachother. The internet is a powerful place, and whether it be blogs, groups on facebook, help based websites, or just general contact with people, i know it has certainly helped me, knowing how many other people out there are sharing what we’re going through and there is always someone out there willing to help you! We aren’t alone in this, any of us :)

I’d really love to spread this message in some way, hopefully, with the help of you lovely people :)

I think it would be great to collect some pictures and present it somehow to get the message out there :) It can be done however you like, paper, hands, just on the computer, anything! :) Message, well anything along the lines of “You are not alone” , “No-one is alone” etc. etc. but feel free to use whatever you like :)

It in no way has to show who it’s from or anything like that!! I shall keep it all anonymous :D…some ideas..

:)

Things can be sent to a wide variety of places! At your convinience ;)

Email to - infinitedaffodil@hotmail.co.uk

Tweet to - @8daffodil

Submit to - infinitedaffodil.tumblr.com

Please spread the word if you can :) THANK YOU IN ADVANCE :)

Here is my contribution to kick things off:

PLEASE NOTE: We know what i am describing is the wonderful side of the internet but PLEASE TAKE CARE TO STAY SAFE ON THE INTERNET. We all know there’s a minority who ruin things for everyone and on the internet it’s more difficult to tell what is and isn’t genuine..so please, i am totally completely all for finding friends and helpful lovely people on the internet but please please take extra care :)

Finally - please let me know if i’ve missed out any important information xD Head is all over the place!!

Farewell x

Thought i’d help in spreading the word to my gorgeous followers xD

I’ve done this guys :) This really hits home for me and is important personally, even if you don’t do this..or even read it xD….it’s totally cool, but it would be awesome if you could reblog and help spread it :)!!

Please..PLEASE…if you’re going to intefer so hugely with my life…can i at least have my dreams to myself??

Usually..you’re quite good…leave them alone and such..

But sometimes, you don’t half pick your moments..

I’ve held this grudge ever since i told Damon Salvatore [Vampire Diaries] that i couldn’t go to the cinema with him because inside i was anxious as it involved being away from home for too long and my agoraphobic side kicked in..and i actually said no..i mean..

WHAT WAS THAT ABOUT?!

Now, as for last night, i know..that the dream was ridiculously long and detailed yet within 20 seconds of waking up i’ve forgotten almost all of it but…

i do know, dear anxiety..that if the lovely Benedict Cumberbatch turns to you for no reason what so ever, and says “well there’s loads of room in my house, feel free to live here”

I’m pretty sure your first thought should NOT be “oh god, here comes the agoraphobia and anxiety in me again, that involves not being at home etc. etc.”

IT WAS EMBARASSING. To say, well thanks..but no..

o.O

PLEASE..

JUST GIVE ME A BREAK!!

I just wanted to say, i’ve seen a few exam posts popping up now and again!! I hear you, i’ve got a pile of them coming up too…why did i choose a uni course that had me drowing in work…i can’t even remember when maths was numbers…it’s all greek letters these days!!

Anyway..i’m off track..

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE DOING EXAMS AT THE MOMENT OR ABOUT TO DO THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really really hope everything goes well for you all you all deserve it :)

And i apologise in advance if i complain about my own exams in the near future xD The stress is giving my anxiety and panic some hell to deal with already!! Deary me!! It will all be over in a few weeks!!!!!! <3

Loves to all!!

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Why does crying seem to be my body’s go-to thing??

Honestly…anything close to anxiety starts off…

and OHHHH I’LL JUST CRY

It’s rather embarassing…

I’ve had worse experiences with it though haha!! Like sobbing by myself in a bathroom because of stress and anxiety in a random public building and a cleaner came in…

I’m just there like *attempts to compose self*

ANXIETY.WHY.MUST.YOU.HAUNT.ME?!

Sorry for the moaning guys it’s just one of those days…